I crossed out a couple of my Writing Year 2011 Goals. The first part of the year has been rough on my for personal reasons, so I’m going to be a little easier on myself with my writing projects. The list is still ambitious, but I still feel it’s doable.
One thing I realized today is, I simply haven’t felt like working on my urban fantasy series. I still love it, but I’m at a tough point. I need to edit Divided, and I hate editing. I need to finish Ravaged, but both times I’ve tried to work on it I’ve crashed and burned, so I’m a little gun shy. I want to complete these both this year, because I want to write the 3rd book, Deceived, for NaNoWriMo, and I think that will be easiest if the other 2 are complete. At the very least, I would like to finish writing Ravaged.
For the moment, however, I’ve decided I need to get back on the writing bandwagon. It doesn’t matter what I write, I just need to write. I have an idea for a short story that grew out of How to Think Sideways (on which I’m stalled at Lesson 9…I’ll get back to it eventually. I pushed my goal completion date back.) I think I’m going to work on this short story. Or I’m just going to sit down and freewrite and see what comes out of it. Anything to get me writing again, because while I’ve written blog posts, I haven’t written any fiction since mid-November.
And I’m going to admit something a little scary out here in public. The thought has crossed my mind that maybe – just maybe – my urban fantasy series isn’t meant to be. I really don’t think that’s true, because I still LOVE the stories (even Divided, which I’ve read through many times for many rounds of editing already.) I absolutely ADORE my characters. And I really do want to see what happens in these yet-unwritten or unfinished stories. So deep down I know this series will work for me. I still believe this will be the one that gets me published. I feel it deep down. So I’m just going to go easy on it right now. Maybe it isn’t right RIGHT NOW. Maybe it just needs a little more time. Maybe I just need a little more time. But that little doubt – it’s just my fear of failure creeping in. I won’t listen to it.
So now I’m off to feed the dogs, then sit outside on this beautiful night (because while you’ll be reading this Tuesday morning, I’m writing it Monday night) and do some freewriting, old fashioned pen-and-paper style. (Random thought…sitting outside might not be the best idea for my allergies – which are already acting up – but add a cup of hot tea and fresh air is the perfect idea for my soul.)
And don’t forget about my guest post from Traci Bell on Friday. She sent it to me on Monday, and you won’t want to miss what she has to share with you.